Not being able to sleep, and to keep myself in good spirits, I let my mind wander to sillier thoughts and began to wonder.. “In many of the Mario games, the clown car gets wrecked alot, many of Bowser’s traps need maintenance, etc etc.. Who does all that?” And thus Engineer Guy was born. But the thought didn’t stop there.. “He has Bowser Jr. and the Koopalings not to mention the mess all those Mario parties and races are sure to make.. someone has to clean all that up and Bowser sure aint gonna do it.. I wonder if he has a maid…” So I made one. I call her Lady Boosworthy. I dunno, this is what happens when I let my mind wander.
Every week I seem to get a new call asking over and over, “Wheres the money, wheres the money, wheres the money!” from creditors and collectors asking for more than I can pay in student loans. I’ve been trying my damndest to soldier on, to pay what I can, and to work with those that I’m able but it’s still not enough and its definitely taken it’s toll on me. Multiple times now I have had to go a few days without eating to save money, I have been working my part time job, construction, and on personal projects hoping at least one will make me some money to the point where I’m lucky to get three hours of sleep a night… And quite frankly, I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. My anxiety and depression have grown worse cause of these people, my tourettes are always going off cause of the stress and even moments ago, I had to talk myself out of committing suicide… I’m fighting a battle I don’t know if I can win both inside and outside my own head and it’s only making me lose the will to move on… I’m tired, I’m hungry, and a bullet to my head is starting to feel like the only way out…
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Would anyone mind explaining to me what tourettes is? (Tourretes? I’m trying my best.) i don’t want to offend anyone by asking but I was curious
Hey error-24601!! I’m guessing this is in relation to this specific tweet:
@thebeardlessone “You won’t make any friends if you keep making noises” #heardwhiledisabled (Actually, he’s the only person to diss my tourettes to my face)
Tourette syndrome (also called Tourette’s syndrome, Tourette’s disorder, Gilles de la Tourette syndrome, GTS or, more commonly, simply Tourette’s or TS) is an inherited neuropsychiatric disorder with onset in childhood, characterized by multiple physical (motor) tics and at least one vocal (phonic) tic. These tics characteristically wax and wane, can be suppressed temporarily, and are preceded by a premonitory urge. Tourette’s is defined as part of a spectrum of tic disorders, which includes provisional, transient and persistent (chronic) tics.
Most people will probably know of Tourettes from comedy sketches, etc, for instance the scenes from Deuce Bigalow (my boyfriend dat-jaw gets really exasperated over that movie bc so many people throughout his life have assumed his tourettes would manifest as shouting out profanities, haha). The whole cursing thing is pretty rare tho, and tics vary from person to person.
Jake has some pretty interesting stories to tell about his public interactions w/ other people who have noticed his tics. I’ll see about asking him to record some of his comedy sketches about some of the more ridiculous stuff. He’s really good at making his experiences fun and funny for jokes, but it’s still ableism and it’s certainly left me worried for his safety before as I’m scared a cop / vigalante citizen might hurt him based on the idea that he’s a dangerous person due to his tics.
Anyway, hoped that helped. *crosses fingers that Jake does record some stuff so I can show him off to everyone*
I can see about recording some stuff haha, Just be aware that when talking about my tourettes they do get a lil worse so I get a tad extra twitchy.
Also aside from that, if anyone does have questions regarding tourettes, please do ask. I actually enjoy educating people about my condition plus I’ve even had parents ask me questions for their children about what it’s like growing up with tics.
Oh and in addition to this tweet,”@touretteshero #heardwhilstdisabled I know what would cure you – an exorcism #Tourettes”. I’ve actually had someone try to “heal” me before when i was working as a busboy….
Markiplier just became my favorite Youtuber
Remember when I blindly hated Russel Brand? I fucked up.
"They’re in a better position to judge than I am."
I think this is how most open minded people who value communication, connection, and are willing to learn from others think.
…Did… Did Russel Brand just explain how to react to being called out on something?
never underestimate this man
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With no cash in my account, and no food in the fridge, I managed to survive on nothin more than four small meals spread out over a week. I have never felt hunger pain like that before in my life and never want to again. *buys mounds and mounds of groceries* I missed you sweet sweet paycheck.